I have never loved someone so much as I love you. You are everything that I could ever hope for in a girl. You're everything that I could ever wish for. We've been through many tests of our relationship and each time we have passed those tests with flying colors; and, in the end, are even stronger than we were to start off.

You are my life and will always be my life. In some philosophies, one must earn their spirit. Through either good deeds or enlightenment, one is to be able to reach such a state that they gain a spirit. I, however, have been lucky. I have been given the love of a beautiful young lady whom is so wonderful she gives me my spirit. I needn't struggle to achieve some impossible goal. All I need to do is be myself and my spirit soars.

You are incredible. Who else could be so wonderful as to get an Atheist to accompany her to church so she wouldn't have to go alone? Who else could get someone to care so much for her well-being without doing anything? Just you. You only have to be around me to make me feel ecstatic. You only have to say "I love you" to make my day go from bad to wonderful. You only have to kiss me to get my heart to skip a beat. You only have to whisper to get my heart to melt.

Even though you're back to living with your mom, when you're gone I feel like you're across the universe rather than just a few blocks away. When I go a few days without seeing you, it feels as if I've gone a few years. I'm constantly looking up at your pictures that dance above my monitor, and everytime I do I can't help but smile and remember that I'll see you again.

I'm reminded of part of an email you sent once:

I haven't let that monkey out of my sight (except for work)... in fact, I'm at mac library right now, and it's sitting on the dashboard of my car. I sleep with it every night, and I've woken up in the middle of the night just because I dropped it. Once I get ahold of it again, I fall right to sleep. Hallie said I remind her of a little kid with their "security blanket." I, too, feel as if we've been apart for months, instead of just 4 days.

I dream of you when I sleep. I can't help it. You're all I think about. You're my source of comfort, of joy, of excitement, of hope, of love... You make me complete.

I almost feel inadequate to hold all of these feelings. It's like I'm a balloon and you're filling me up with joy. No matter how full I get, you keep adding more. It feels as if I'm going to burst. All those times that we're laying down holding eachother and drifting off to sleep, I can't help but to get overflowing tears of joy.

Whether you believe it or not, you are the most beautiful person I've ever met. Nowhere else have I found someone that is the perfect blend of sweetness, kindness, caringness, lovingness, intelligence, and thoughtfulness as you. You deserve the world and I fear I can't give it to you. However, you mean too much to me for me to give up and not try to deliver the world. I'll always be here for you. No matter what the problem is you can come to me and I'll try my hardest to help. You're my doll and I can't stand seeing you hurt. If the problem is with me, you can still come to me and we'll talk it out. I'll never get mad at you and I will always listen to what you have to say.

But... of course, you already know this stuff.

I wish we would've had more of a history together. We'll just have to make that history. We'll spend our futures together so that we don't have two separate futures, but one single future. I want to spend the rest of my life with you and I can't wait for the day that I can afford the ring you deserve.

I love you with all my heart and am overjoyed to be able to spend St. Valentine's Day with someone so wonderful..

Love,
Jared

P.S. I still feel the butterflies...